I RECEIVED THE MESSAGE FROM SPIRIT TO GO BACK TO CHICAGO FOR THE FIRST TIME IN EIGHT MONTHS.
I KNEW I HAD TO. BUT I WAS TERRIFIED TO GO BACK TO THE OLD ENVIRONMENT THAT HAD TRAUMATIZED ME, WHEN I WAS FINALLY IN A SPACE OF RADICAL HEALING.

I LANDED IN CHICAGO. I WAS IN FRONT OF THE HOUSE WHERE I GREW UP, AND I COULD NOT LIFT MY HAND TO OPEN THE DOOR.

I TOOK A DEEP BREATH…

AND, I SAID OUT LOUD;

“SPIRIT, HOW CAN I MAKE THIS EASIER ON MY SOUL?
HOW CAN I APPLY ALL THAT I AM LEARNING?”

AN IMAGE CAME TO MY MIND WHERE I WAS SITTING WITH MY BROTHERS WHEN WE WERE KIDS AND PLAYING THE VIDEO GAME MARIO BROTHERS.

I SMILED AS I PICTURED MY PARENTS AS BOWSER, AND EVERYTHING THAT CAME OUT OF THEIR MOUTHS WERE LIKE FIREBALLS.

I ASKED MYSELF;

“CASS... WHAT CAN YOU DO WHEN THEY SHOOT NEGATIVITY AT YOU?”

I CAN STILL REMEMBER MY HAND ON THE DOOR AS I SAID OUT LOUD:

“I CAN LEVEL UP, NOW. THAT’S IT!!! NOWLEVELUP!”

GOD WHISPERED: YES.

THAT DAY I CHOSE TO CONSCIOUSLY CHANGE MY STORY AND PLAY THE CHARACTER OF LOVE.

THE LEVEL OF MY LIFE RADICALLY SHIFTED.

MY ENTIRE STORY CHANGED.